Got this from Wikipedia.com – it almost exactly describes what I’ve been feeling since yesterday morning (I left work at 1pm and stayed home today), after having gotten the flu shot about 24 hours before I started to feel all woozy and weak.
Side effects
Side effects of the inactivated/dead flu vaccine injection include:
- mild soreness, redness, and swelling where the shot was given
- fever
- aches
These problems usually begin soon after the injection, and last 1–2 days.[129]
Some adults 18–49 years of age have reported:[130]
- runny nose or nasal congestion
- sore throat
- cough, chills, tiredness/weakness
- headache
Yeah, I got all of that. Funny how they call it “side effects.” I call it the f-ing flu. I feel like a sheep, or a lemming. Shot in the arm full of “dead” flu virus and preservatives? Sure, go ahead!
Slept almost all day. Had horrible nightmares – I’d wake and cry for Jonah: I want my boy back! I’d panic, coughing, and cuddle under the covers deeper. I had a scream inside me; my ears rang with a cricket-y pulsing. Maddening. They say dogs know when you’re sad, or sick, and I believe it. Jack jumped into bed with me, pressing all 90 lbs of his warm self into me and licking my face and ears. My mom calls Jack a cow. He’s such a good dog, though. He can’t help that he’s a lummox.
I am looking forward to seeing Jonah on Saturday with an impatience I rarely feel. I miss him palpably today, and in a piercing, whiny, weak way.
I want my boy back…
Of course I don’t – at least not now, what with this “side effects” the flu.
It’s a blessing to rest. Jonah’s been doing either well or okay for a few days running now, from what I understand. He doesn’t have school tomorrow so I hope to God and little baby Jason it is sunny and nice out so he can go on his favorite swing or run around and play. I hope he somehow knows in his heart that his mommy is thinking of him, and loving him, and wishing she was there now instead of Saturday.
I decided to keep writing for the Capital District Parent Pages, only in a different capacity – writing feature articles about local businesses (obviously child-focused). My first new column publishes December 1st. It’s so good to keep writing. I know, for example, that this is no award-winning post, but it makes me feel better and I’m sick-y.
On that note, headache coming back. Must. Seek. Meds.
Happy 11-11-11 tomorrow…
The Never Normal 