The Never Normal

I found out today that my son Jonah has autism. I can’t write about it right now.  For those who do so, please pray for us.  It’s a difficult time for my family.

jonah.

it’s difficult to express a mother’s love for her child, they way a mother’s heart balloons expands rises protects cushions flows heals

breaks

so there are tears of a kind i’d never known before, the kind that contain every emotion there is and sometimes even an inconceivable ecstasy just as powerful as the pain that comes from being meek and cowardly and frozen like some doe-in-headlights spinning like the top, the toy, the truck, in our home if it spins, it is spun.

oh how i am full of this sappy-dippy-mommy-love i used to mock or misunderstand. my son is truly extraordinary – all full of sweetness and light.

i have been given a great gift, a true blessing.

andy and i
are so frightened!

the woodwork is crawling with friends and family, supporting strong, amazingly so, so much i feel humbled by it all.