This past Saturday was okay for a while and then it really wasn’t okay at all. Part of it was my mental state, which went all to hell on Friday. But here are a bunch of cool pictures.
Knockout Ned came along.
Jonah put his harness on to get into the car…
Swinging at the park
Looking at “whiteduck.”
…but then in the car he pulled my hair hard, grabbed and bent my glasses, and kicked me in the head. My mother kept saying “let me get in the back with him.”
I’m not sure if she thought (A) He wouldn’t attack her or (B) She wouldn’t mind it if he did and (C) She certainly wouldn’t be the melodramatic weakling her daughter turns into, crying and sad because she sees her son for 2 hours a week and wants it to be a good 2 hours, a happy 2 hours…
She actually was extremely angry at me for this and not a word was spoken between us on the ride back.
“All I can say,” she declared disgustedly, once we’d arrived home, “is God help Jonah.”
I was pissed at her implication, but I can get behind what she said. I have never done right by her beloved grandson and I never will. This I must accept as her perception, one she has a right to, one I mustn’t do much more with than acknowledge. Thank God I am not so young anymore. I am learning. Slowly…but I am learning when silence, forgiveness, and self-examination are best.
Off to another doctor appointment tomorrow, to the rheumatologist again. Andy’s bringing him up this time.
God help Jonah.
I’m so sorry Amy 😦 You’re doing the best you can. I’ve played plenty of blame games with my family as well. Feelings are so raw all the way around. *hugs*
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Oh, Amy, how we turn into our mother’s children again when we are with them. You Mom had no right to judge you. Yes…God help Jonah, as well as you, and all those who love him and want what’s best.
Think about this, though. When Jonah is hurting, you are crushed, helpless to do anything, and yet would do anything to make it better. Perhaps these are the same maternal feelings your Mom is having toward you. Just a thought. I’m sorry the visit went poorly. Love you!
Martie
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I’m not as nice as everyone else; I say let her sit in the back next time. Make certain she’s wearing her favorite pair of glasses. Of course I don’t wish harm to come to your Mother, but I don’t think she has the right to judge you so harshly! You are doing an amazing job with an impossible situation – from this outsider’s humble perspective at least. Peace to your entire family.
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https://www.buspartswarehouse.com/
I think the whole harness costs about $150
The number is 1-800-635-5567. If you have more questions, email me at winklett@hotmail.com.
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